Friday, November 9, 2018

12 Months

Happy birthday, baby!

We’ve had one whole trip around the sun with this precious baby girl and have loved every minute. This girl is the sweetest, happiest baby I’ve ever known. Her smile makes me smile, her laugh makes me laugh, and she is more beautiful every day. I love that she got her blue eyes from her daddy. I love how she giggles when her brothers act silly for her. Her birthday party tomorrow will be “sugar and spice” themed because she truly is everything nice!

Sweet girl, you light up my life. This first year with you has been better than I could’ve imagined. You are one of my life’s greatest blessings. Having a daughter has changed my world for the better. I can’t wait to keep watching you grow. Love you, baby. Happy 9th.

“So lets climb every tree/and drink imaginary tea/and speak a language only we can understand/and I will fight back the tears/as we fly through the years/and I’ll keep you as close as I can/cause I love you more than you will ever know.” -imaginary tea, Jon McLaughlin



Tuesday, October 9, 2018

11 Months

Our picture this month shows a new trick!  Baby girl can walk.  It's only a few steps at a time right now, but I know that soon enough she'll be running to keep up with the big brothers.  She's talking more now, still mostly nonsense sounds, but a few recognizable words here and there.  Holland wants every book to be a touch-and-feel book, and runs her fingers along plain pages with a confused look.  She feels she's outgrown baby food entirely and wants to share any and all food with the adults and big kids. (She has created an effective diet plan for me by my getting the food I want to eat and then having her eat half of all my portions.) 

Happy 9th, baby.  I love you with my whole heart.  Now let's start practicing holding up one tiny little finger, because the next ninth of the month, you'll be an entire year old!

Sunday, September 9, 2018

10 Months

Double digits now, baby!

You continue to be the sweetest, happiest baby.  I think you could walk if you tried, but although your little legs are strong enough, your confidence isn't quite ready yet, so we'll wait patiently.  This month you've started trying to talk to us, no doubt trying to make you voice heard above the din that is your older brothers.  I am going to officially declare your first word (besides mama and dada) to be "book," even though it sounds a little more like "buh."  I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt.  You're a doll, Holland Elizabeth.  Every day with you is a good day, and we've already gotten 10 months full of good days. 

Happy 9th, love bug.


Thursday, August 9, 2018

9 Months

A round of applause for this 9 month old girl!

Holland learned to clap this month and she uses her new skill all the time.  Out of the twenty-five frames I shot for this picture, about twenty of them had motion blur on her little hands, like trying to catch hummingbird wings.  She loves to eat whatever we're having rather than baby food puree (who could blame her?), so she's enjoyed trying lots of new foods this month.  She can pull up to standing and walk a little bit if you hold both of her hands, but she's still content to army crawl when she really needs to get somewhere quickly.

This baby girl continues to be as sweet as pie.  She's all sugar and (true to third child lore) seems to know that her job is to roll with whatever crazy schedule the rest of us are operating on.  She wins the best sleeper award, too!

Happy ninth, my little love.  I'm so glad I'm your mommy.

Monday, July 9, 2018

8 Months

Happy ninth, baby girl.

On a technicality (because it's after midnight on the 8th as I post this), you are 8 months old today.  I can't believe it.  I'm up late tonight thinking of some things that are not important (building a new house) some things that are very important (praying for a sweet friend who just came out of the hospital) and you.  Precious girl, I want everything for you.  At 8 months old you are the happiest, easiest, best sleeping baby I've ever had.  Your very first tooth just poked through the gums, which is always a fun moment for your mommy/dentist.  Your new favorite game is practicing pulling up to standing, and then sitting down with a plop.  It's my fault, really, because I cheer for you every time you do either one.  It's a win-win situation at Casa Edwards.  This month it was especially hard to take your picture because you are always on the move, so this side-swipe pic was the best I could manage, but I do declare you're still adorable, even crunched over sideways.

Happy 9th, little lady.  I love you to pieces.

Sunday, June 17, 2018

The Best Medicine

There is a narrative that exists in our society in which the healthcare field has been overtaken with caricatures of good and evil. Hospitals, pharmaceutical companies, insurers, and physicians are cast as greedy villains, who care little or not at all about the well-being of the patient, but thoughtlessly follow charts and doctrines of Western medicine and then go home to swim in piles of golden coins like Scrooge McDuck. 

While I would admit that there are some greedy folks in the healthcare field (just as in every other field) and that there is room for improvement in the treatment of patients, I also believe that there are very few true villains in this life, both in the healthcare field or in any other. In fact, I even believe there are heroes who are doctors, hospital administrators, pharmaceutical researchers, and many other healthcare-related positions. 

The problem is, we often don’t hear their stories of victory, partly because patient privacy is of paramount importance, and partly because they simply tend to be humble folks. But I happen to be married to a doctor, and sometimes I find myself compelled to share a story that flies in the face of the more negative perspective that seems so pervasive. 

One such story is this one. 

A woman was in the hospital due to breathing complications stemming from a problem in her lungs. The situation was quite grave—her doctors had warned her that while she needed the assistance of a ventilator to breathe during this moment of acute lung malfunction, they could not guarantee she would be able to come off the ventilator afterward. Happily, a while later she was able to move from the ventilator to a tracheotomy, but dealing with the stress of the situation had taken a toll on her mentally, physically, and emotionally. 

Being unsure of her future ability or inability to breathe on her own had left her feeling anxious, afraid, and weak. Upon entering her hospital room very early one morning while rounding, Jeffrey found her sitting up in bed, struggling for air and looking terrified.  He came over to her bed and watched as she wrote on her whiteboard (as patients who are trached cannot speak) “I can’t breathe. I know you can’t give me any more medicine right now, but I can’t breathe.”

Jeffrey rightly diagnosed that the patient’s feeling of breathlessness was related to her anxiety rather than her lungs, however he also knew that giving her more medicine to treat the anxiety was not an option as it might depress her breathing even more. (The patient knew this, too—that is why she stated “I know you can’t give me more medicine”.) So what’s a doctor to do who is denied his ability to prescribe? 

He motioned for her to hand him the dry erase marker.  Quietly he drew a series of lines and then handed the marker back to her so she could make her first guess in their impromptu game of hangman.  

Quietly there, in the early morning hours under harsh fluorescent hospital light, the room became calm and the patient’s breathing slowed, not by medical intervention per se, but by her doctor, sitting on the foot of her bed for a while to play a silly game.  Sometimes medicine means pills and prescriptions, and other times medicine means distractions and kindness and time. 

Don’t let the narratives you hear fool you. Our healthcare system is not made of one dimensional caricatures. There are exceedingly few villains and while there are occasionally heroes, more often good medicine is simply good work done by attentive doctors (nurses/administrators/lab techs/etc...), responsive and resilient patients, and the miraculous biological process of healing. 


Yes, your doctor really does care about you and your health—and if you’re lucky, he might even care to play you in hangman. 

Saturday, June 9, 2018

7 Months

Seven sweet months with Holland Elizabeth and another magnolia blossom added to her first year's bouquet.  What a lovely month it has been.  Baby girl has developed the most awkwardly adorable roly-poly army crawl, giving her forward motion to grab big brothers' toys.  Still a lightweight on the scales but eating like a champ...even with no teeth at all.  We're all in love with those blue eyes (that look just like her daddy's) and her gummy little smile. 

We're so glad you're in our family, sweet pea.  Happy 9th, love bug.



Wednesday, May 9, 2018

6 Months

This day marks the halfway point of a first trip around the sun for my littlest sunshine.  She's squealed through the month with the highest pitched glee, earning her the not-very-catchy but very appropriate nickname "Squeaky Baby."  She sits up with just a little bit of help and started eating some baby food puree.  Typically, when I pick her up from work, she grabs my face with both hands and gives me a slobbery kiss that only 6 month olds and puppies are best known for.  (But I don't mind it.)  This month's flower is a ranunculus--which means "radiant charm."  Well, my sweet baby, you are radiantly charming to me and to everyone you meet.  You're a light.  I love watching you shine.

Happy 9th, Holland.


Oh, and one more thing, just for fun--I put together the pictures from each baby's 6 month photo shoot.  It's a good thing you all weren't triplets...I never would have been able to tell you apart!


   

Monday, April 9, 2018

Five Months

Happy ninth, little girl!

At five months old you are an absolute delight.  You've found your voice and often use it to squeak with joy or displeasure.  (I remember your oldest brother doing the same thing around this age, but you, my dear, are in a register all your own!)  You can roll from back to front or front to back, but you much prefer to turn left.  We will have to work on moving to the right so you don't turn out lopsided.  If I'm really honest, though, your biggest preference is to be in someone's arms.  That little thumbkin is still in your mouth about 90% of the time, but if we're able to pull it away, we get rewarded with your darling little smile.  This month's flower is a white orchid, signifying beauty and innocence.  You are a lovely little lady, indeed. 





Friday, March 9, 2018

Four Months

Another month has passed us by, and another 9th means another flower for my girl.  This month we're using the calla lily.  This flower officially stands for faithfulness, purity, and hope because it blooms around the time of Easter every year.  To us, though, the calla lily will always represent our wedding day, as it was one of only a few special flowers chosen to adorn my bridal bouquet.  Yes, today is the ninth and thus Holland's "monthday," but yesterday Jeffrey and I celebrated our ten year anniversary.  I've been deep in thought about the last decade and all the many choices, decisions, accidents, divine plans, and happenstance that lead to me sitting here today, typing a four month celebration post for my third sweet baby.  Ten years ago, I wouldn't have dared to imagine that one day I would have so much love in my life.

Holland, at four months old you are as precious as ever.  My favorite thing right now is to have a little conversation with you--you, cooing imaginary baby words at me with a furrowed and serious brow, and me, grinning like a fool, hanging on your every word.  You've rolled over a time or two and your big brothers are so proud of you for every milestone you achieve.  You have an impressive list of folks wrapped around your tiny little finger.  You are a joy and we all love you so much.  Happy 9th, love bug. 



Friday, February 9, 2018

Three Months

This month's flower is a bit of a mystery--I think it may be of the imaginary variety...but it sure looks pretty.  We'll call it a purple wisteria.  Wisteria is used to signify good luck in new beginnings, and I think that's a perfect description for where we are with this girl.  This month she is beginning to do many new things like reaching for toys and cooing and lying on her tummy without crying crocodile tears.  Holland is still a solid sleeper and a pleasant little lady when she's awake.  She still likes to keep her little fingers close to or in her mouth...her dentist/mommy is already dreading the day we have to try and break that habit.  She smiles for almost everyone, and if the last picture I post today doesn't make you smile right back, I don't know what will.

Three beautiful months with my beautiful girl.  I don't need any wisteria, thank you.  I'm feeling lucky already.  Happy 9th, baby doll.




Tuesday, January 9, 2018

Two Months

Another month has flown by with my girl.  This month's flower is the red hydrangea.  Google tells me that hydrangeas represent heartfelt sentiment, which seems appropriate because I love this baby with my whole heart. 

This month she's gotten to spend some time with family over the holidays, my mom during my first week back at work, and now a precious babysitter who daily sends me text messages about how cute she is.  (I never tire of receiving those messages!)  Even with all of the changes, she has remained our sweet and soft little lady, her fuzzy hair always sticking straight up, and her little thumb or fingers constantly trying to find their way into her mouth.  As a dentist, I suppose I was destined to have at least one child who sucks her thumb.

Happy 9th, baby doll.  I love you from the bottom of my heart.